Writer's Block

I'm having writer's block when it comes to my final essay for MCOM. I get the feeling that the block is now due n part because I just don't want to treat school like work. My teacher said that school is currently our job. After she said that I felt like it as true and started pushing myself harder realizing indeed that school is considered our current job and if there is one thing I want to be remembered for it is that I worked really hard at my job. But that feeling has kind of died down again. Why? I don't know. Maybe because it is the end of the semester. Maybe because I'm afraid again. Last week in church was a wonderful talk given about not stressing out. It helped me so much maintain a positive attitude during this week. I spend a lot of time with my MCOM group writing this business article over the week and I felt quite optimistic even though I had to miss a lot, and I mean, a lot of hours at work.

I used to be able to write in a fun way. People would laugh at what I wrote because I meant them to. Now I feel like everything that I write isn't funny nor exciting. It's just boring. Could that be because I think that writing is boring as well? I wish that I didn't make so many typos when I typed. That is possible because I just attempt to write so fast that my fingers get confused on where to put the next character or my touch is so light that the key doesn't register by the time my other finger hits the other key. Now I'm just rambling, ramble ramble ramble.

I can't wait for this term to be over. After this I'll know if I got into the ISys program. I'll know the route I need to take in order to get the jobs that I want. Why didn't I just stick with computer engineering? Did I waste a bunch of time walking down these other roads? I certainly hope not, but who knows?

I just get discouraged so easily these days. Is this just the winds of change? I've got to do better and more. Luckily, I think I just finished my ISys essay.