This week I have spent an awful lot of time playing video games. Why? Because I'm finishing up everything else in good time. And the games seemed fun, at first. I went from game to game trying to find something that I cared to finish. I even started a campaign on Donkey Country 2. Yeah, couldn't get into it. It's not that I don't care to win the entire game but as I'm playing it I keep thinking to myself, I could use my time more wisely. And so I figured I would remove the distraction. Which I just did. I removed most the games from my computer. In fact, I only have one left called PlanetSide. I wish I had a group of friends that played computer games. I'd play with them and it would be good bonding time.
But this way I can spend more concentration on my beautiful wife. I love her very deeply and I love being around her. However, she is gone lots, and when she is here there is definitely more time that we can spend together than either of us need. So what should I do now? I could read. Reading is kind of fun. I could start playing the guitar again. But then I think, what is the point? What's my objective?
My objective is to get a good education so that I can afford to take care of my family. Well, I'm on that path. I'm actually very much on that path and even more so than should be normal. I almost have no more fears of providing for my family, and beyond. So the next step, what is beyond providing for my family? Enjoying time with my family. I need to step up my game and enjoy time with Ashley in all areas of life. I need to get her flowers more often. I need to surprise her with notes of love more often. I need to show her that I care very much about her and will do anything for her. But I know I can get that down. So what's next?
I keep asking, what's next? What's next? What's the point at the end of life? Well, to become God's. And to increase our joy through children. Perhaps, when the children come all will just naturally fall into place. However, I can't stop but think that off my shoulder I must have some sort of hobby. But what is a hobby that will provide an advantage, increase my skills, prepare me to be a better father, etc?
Does that mean that I should abandon the lesser things in life like video games. I can't help but think no, that doesn't mean that I should abandon them. I just need to make sure that I have balance in my life. But even that, I feel like I am currently achieving.
So what to do now, go back to the basics. Learn how to master people. Learn how to master life. Read my scriptures, go to church, participate, actively try and gain something new each time, record it, prepare. Go to the temple, write in a journal. Review the good things of the world and become an asset to humanity. Stay on the straight and narrow. Always worship my God. And await, await for Him to call upon me so that I can use the skills He has blessed me with to benefit the lives of His children more than before.
I've gotta learn to bless the lives of others.
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